Day 97, dream

Assalamualaikum…

I dreamt of my late father last night, and the night before too. In my dream, he just sat on the wheelchair watching us. And last night I told him, mom misses him very much. Everyone does, but Mom miss him badly. He just sat there with a sad face. 

I guessed he is missing us too. People keep telling me that life goes on, but to me, that is the saddest part. May you rest in peace, bapak. Al-Fatihah…

Shine bright like a diamond

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If you remember this photo I have posted long long time ago… back in 2015 (end of the year) if I am not mistaken. This is the beginning of me falling in love into Diamond Drills set. Yeah, I chose Frozen design because back then, I would like to give it to Amani as her birthday present. 

However, making it would not as easy as peanut! Took a lot of times and efforts to ‘drilled’ the diamond onto the chart. There were thousands of them, with colour codes and patterns. 


So on and off I was struggled hard to finish it. Finally, early of this year I have completed the Frozen Diamond Drills. Phew! Yeah, that was a big PHEW! from me. Hahaha. 😂

This is my satisfaction. 

Cross Stitch Love Note

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Last month I had joined a #csmlovenote swap organised by the Cross Stitch Malaysia group. The task is to complete any cross stitch with the theme of Love Note. Each of us would assigned to one swap partner. 

I decided to frame it with embroidery hoop. Unfortunately I made a mistake by cutting the cloth too small for the hoop size. So I cover it with yellow felt and glued the diamond stickers on top of it. What do you think?

 In return I received a bunch of love! She gave me the biscornu pin cushion, crochet purse, aida cloth and cross stitch kits. How generous. Thank you, Minn. 

Imagine.Remember

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Amani really loves to draw. Every drawing, she would tell me her own story. This picture is about a doll in a box. 

This picture tells about her dream house. Yeah, I noticed that she always draw a house, her double storey – colourful – dream house. There she was, playing with her cat Jojo, and her friend from school Am. The green building is the shopping complex with lift. 

Recently she drawed her family portraits. That’s true. There was Abah, Mama, Usu, Nek Mak and to my surprised she even drawed her late grandfather ‘Nek Bang’ . I asked her, why Nek Bang like that? She told me, Nek Bang is sleeping in the grave. He wore white cloth. 😥 I couldn’t even hold my tears. My daughter really understand the real situation eventhough she is just 5 years old. She must be missing her grandfather so much.

Birthday.me.2017

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How have you been lovelies? I hope no one is missing me. Because if you do so, I will feel guilty for neglecting my blog. 

15th February, I turned 35 years old. 35 years ago my mother gave birth to me without my father by her side. He was attended a work course in Japan. And so my mother had to drive herself to the hospital. They later informed my father about my birth by telegram. 

And this year, just like 35 years ago… we celebrated my birthday without my father again. I am used to him teasing me with him singing a Birthday song when it comes to my birthday. And then he would jokingly asked Amani “Whose birthday is today, Amani?”

That would be my sweet memories with him when he was still around… 

I will never hear your singing, your teasing, your laugh, your jokes… 

I miss you, Pak. 😥

Sad love story…

Assalamualaikum…

Happy New Year 2017. What? It’s already in the middle of January 2017. I hope it’s not too late to wish new year for you. 

As you can see, I’m still here. Alive, breathing but not really kicking. I’m crippled, I haven’t moved on from 2016. In fact, I’m not sure I’d want to. 

Back in 2016, my journey of life story ended with sorrows. My father passed away on the 20th December, 2016. It was heartbreaking moment indeed. It happened so fast and I still thought it was just a bad dream.

Everything happens by the will of Allah. Whatever He wills happens, and whatever he does not, will does not happen. All we (my family) really need now is time to heal our sorrows. This is really hard but Im trying to be strong each day facing the reality and living with his memories. 

Dear Bapak,

“May Allah answer your secret prayers,

Wipe away your secret tears,

Erase your secret fears,

And lift you to the position you so dearly desire. Amiiin…” 

Bestie Meetup

Assalamualaikum. How are you lovelies?

Last week, heard that my best friend Edzy was coming to Kuching. So we grab the chance to meet up at Viva City. 

The last time we met was during Hari Raya, last year. Amani was still shy with them. But this time, they were enjoyed listening to Amani’s story. She was excited to have a collection of Hello Kitties from Aunt Edzy & Uncle Is.

 

And then I brought her to my favourite shop in Viva City. I knew she would love the shop too. So we went to Kaison, and she goes crazy overthere. Lol! 

We both love craft. And Cactus!! As I promised to her, I gave her my little Sahara for adoption. In return, she gave me these cute felt cactuses!! There’s even a Sahara replica she made it for me. Thank you Cimeng!! 😘